Nov. 30th (The sixth day)

It was the last day of the exhibition. The exhibition hall was quite empty compared to the previous days. Some people came to our booth and asked me about our products but they were just doing it out of curiousity. However, it was also a good chance for me to practise my speaking skills so I was happy to do it. A guy from a software company came to our booth and asked me what 4D is. I explained it to him to the best of my knowledge although I wasn't very sure if I knew it 100% correctly.:) When I was explaining 4D, I tried to say "internal organs" but suddenly I couldn't remember the words.:O I wanted him to know what I was going to say from the context but he teased me saying he didn't know the words I needed. It was embarrassing.:) Then he suggested I come over to his company's booth and he explain what his company makes. I was trying to make the most of the exhibition by meeting new people and learning about new things. His company makes software that reconstructs CT images. It was very interesting to know and I felt satisfied with myself learning more about medical industry.
The exhibition closed at 2pm and we started to dismantle the booth and pack the exhibits. As I looked around the exhibiton hall turning into a construction site, I knew that I was going to miss it after I go back to normal life. It felt odd.
After sending a box back to Korea by FedEx, we came back to the hotel at about 5pm. Not much time left for me to explore Chicago.:( As John and Kurt did enough sightseeing while I was just staying in the hotel room with Eunmi, they wanted to shop. So we walked to the city. It was very cold. When we got to downtown, finally I could feel the lively atmosphere of Chicago I've expected. Yes, I am definitely a city girl. As Kurt was familiar with the directions and the places where we could buy good clothes for good prices, John and I just followed him. I was so excited to be in downtown for shopping. First, we went to Nordstrom Rack. I learned about Nordstrom from CEO Exchange. But mostly what they have seemed cheap but out of date. So I didn't buy anything. Kurt told me to help him pick a sweat suit and took me to the women's section saying men's wear in America comes in such big sizes. HAHAHA...It reminded me of the episode from Sex and the city where Samantha freaked out when she saw the short guy she was dating because he "gives" her good sex wear clothes from boys department.:)
Kurt doesn't want to live in the US because he thinks colored people are discriminated against in America. He told me Americans ignore colored people more if their English is not good. Hmm...here's the thing I've noticed. Korean men think they are always discriminated against on the basis of race in a country like America, Canada and Australia. But I don't hear that much from Korean women. I think it's because most Korean men are shorter and have small frames compared to western guys, which is considered not manly or attractive.
After Nordstrom Rack, we went to Old navy and I bought a long jacket for Taewon there as my sister asked me to buy something for Taewon. While John and Kurt were spending more time there, I went to Bodyshop and bought the white musk eau de toilette for myself and mango body butter for my sister and myself. Unlike my sister told me, Bodyshop in America wasn't as cheap than in Korea when 9% tax was added. As time was getting close to 7 pm, shops started to close :( and John went back to the hotel. Kurt and I looked for a place to eat. I still wanted to go to Cheesecake factory so much but we decided to go somewhere nearby as it was freezing outside. We went into a small restaurant and ordered food. Again, everything except salads was pure junk but the amount of food was enormously big. I really wondered. If you are American and are not so rich, you just have to eat junk, look terrible and die early??:( It was such a pity that my camera was broken and I couldn't show the photos of food to people. I was glad that Australia is different from America.
After we ate, we were walking to the hotel and black dangerous-looking people started to come out on the street. Kurt told me not to look scared. I saw a guy stumbling along. Kurt said he must have had drug. Is it just Chicago? I don't think so. America doesn't seem like a good country to live in.
When all of us got together at the hotel lobby, we were all feeling exhausted from the exhibition as the tension released. So we all agreed just to go to sleep.

Nov. 29th (The fifth day)

Since we arrived in Chicago, the weather had been unusually balmy unlike the normal weather of November in Chicago according to Frank who was visiting Chicago for the fifth time. But from today, it started to get really cold. In the morning, Eunmi had a meeting with our CEO at the hotel restaurant so I decided to call room service and have my breakfast delivered. I thank my company for its generous support.:)
Frank, Eunmi and Dr. Lee were supposed to leave for Seattle in the afternoon to visit a potential client and demonstrate our products. Then, I was being left with John and Kurt in Chicago.:( Before they left, Frank asked me and Kurt to get him the probes for demo and a copy of one carnet that he was going to take with him. Suddenly I realized that I left the carnet in my hotel room and Kurt noticed it. Maybe it was the chance for him to get me in trouble. He said "What? Tell John immediately. How many probes are there in the box? How many? Oh, we are in trouble. This is so bad.". He was trying to make me freak out. And I got upset and raised my voice tone and said "Don't make a scene. There are all the probes in the box.". It's interesting that I am gradually forgetting Kurt's behaviors that pissed me off in Chicago. I can't describe them precisely now and I don't want to write about the details of unpleasant stuff. Hmm...
John went to the airport to drop off our CEO and there were only Kurt and me at the booth. As it was getting close to the last day of the exhibition, not many people were visiting our booth. The interesting thing was after receiving many visitors for a few days at the booth, I could tell what kind of people were important to deal with and what kind of people were not. Kurt and I decided to close the booth at 4:55pm and went back to the hotel. When John came back from the airport, we had dinner at the Thai restaurant since it was the most decent place to eat. I didn't complain about eating at the same restaurant every night any more.:)
Apparently standing at the booth and talking to people all day was not an easy job so I was very tired at the end of the day. Since Eunmi left, I could use the hotel room alone. It was good to be alone after spending a few nights with Eunmi in the same room. I watched TV to feel I was in America:) and went to sleep.

Nov. 28th (The fourth day)

Eunmi liked to stay in the hotel at night instead of going out to do sightseeing. She is a mother of two kids and a very successful entrepreneur. She liked to talk to her husband and kids on the phone or watch the videos of her kids and movies in the hotel room. I could see it was very painful for her to travel abroad for business away from her family. Anyway, I decided to stay in the hotel room with her as I didn't want to hang out with Kurt and John. Every morning Kurt told me he went to downtown while I was just staying in the hotel room and ate at Cheesecake factory I was dying to go to.:( But I could enjoy a burger more if I eat it with people I love.
Today was an important day to me because there was a meeting arranged with U company and dinner after that. So I was a bit tensed. While John and Kurt went for lunch, Frank told me to amend the presentation material that John made. Frank believes in my English skills and gives me all the English-related work. It is definitely flattering for me that my boss believes in my skills. But it was kind of stifling that I had to revise the material at our booth because John would feel bad when he came back and saw me do that. When Kurt and John came back from lunch, Kurt came up to me and watched what I was doing carefully (Just like he does all the time:)). Kurt said "Oh, you are making some correction on the material that John made. Hmm, John wouldn't feel good.". I knew another thing that Kurt would be thinking in his head - "Why does Frank tell her to do that instead of telling ME to do?!".
At 4pm, Frank and I went over to U company's booth and had a meeting with John, the CEO and Amol, the service manager. Mainly Frank talked and I took notes of what was discussed. I was happy I didn't have any dfficulty understanding what John and Amol said. But I also wanted to talk in response to their requests and questions. I knew I couldn't just open my mouth and say what's in my head in that situation because Frank has the power to decide and say what can be done on behalf of our company but I don't. It's always been the difficulty in my job. Anyway the meeting went well without too many serious subjects brought up.
At night, our CEO, Frank and I went to the restaurant that I booked for dinner with U company. Before our CEO came, Frank told me that it was not gonna be fun at all and he was feeling stressed as he had to interpret what our CEO would say. Poor Frank...
John, Laurent and Amol were having drinks at the bar when we got there. As we all walked into the restaurant, I left my coat with a waiter and he gave me a ticket after we all sat down at the table. I thought the ticket was for the table so I put it in the middle of the table. Later after finishing dinner, I realized it was a ticket for my coat when the waiter asked me to show the ticket. That was embarrassing.:)
I sat bewteen John and Amol. And our CEO sat between John and Frank. Frank had to pay attention to what our CEO said and interpret it in English. But for me, it was almost like casual dinner as I didn't necessarily have to talk about business so i was having a lot of fun. John and Amol are both from GE and espeically John is a former vice president of GE healthcare Asia and known as a politically very savvy person. So I could have been a bit scared of him but as I don't usually feel timid talking to high profile people like him (for some reason), I was enjoying the dinner very much. John showed me his cell phone with which he can do everything and use Blackberry, a very popular Canadian portal site. John, Amol and Laurent all had quite big cell phones where Korean phones are getting thinner and smaller. I think they do more things on cell phones than Koreans do. I asked him how many emails he gets a day. He said 100 emails.:O While talking to him, I could feel he says things that are planned and measured in advance. With Amol, I talked about more casual things. He said he likes to go to night clubs and recommended a club to me and said I should go there while I was in Chicago. For some reason, Amol reminded me of James. He wasn't muscular, though. haha Amol said my English is very fluent so I got very confident and it made me talk more and more. The food was very good unlike the junk I had been eating at the exhibition hall but I was too full to eat much. I didn't order an appetizer and dessert and couldn't even finish the main dish. What a shame. I never get to make the most of chances like this where I can eat free food as much as I want.:)
There was no forceful drinking, exaggerated actions and loudness. Of course it was a formal dinner with two CEOs present. However I couldn't help but think why work dinners at our company could be like this.
After the dinner, we came back to the hotel and our CEO told Frank to call John and Kurt and wake them up to have another drink with them. It was 10:30 pm and the next day was not even the last day of the exhibition. Frank whispered to me that he would tell our CEO that it was my turn to go to the exhibition hall early tomorrow morning so I had to go to sleep. As soon as I heard him say that, I thought these 4 men were going somewhere strange and open exculsively to men as I have heard Korean men go to strange places during their business trips. Frank said it would be tough for me to sit and drink with our CEO because I can't drink a lot. I was amazed again by Frank's considerateness.

Nov. 27th (The third day)

I got off work at almost 9pm. So I am a little tired now but think I should keep writing about my business trip before I forget the feelings whether they are good ones or bad ones.
I looked at my passport to see what the exact date was when I came back to Korea from Australia. It was Nov. 27th, 2005. So I was abroad again after about an year from then.
Although I didn't go anywhere special but McCormick place and the hotel during the exhibition, I was just excited about the fact that I was abroad.:) Every morning we took the shuttle bus to go to McCormick place from the hotel and on some days, the bus took different routes so I could see the Great Lakes, different streets and shops at least. Especially I like to see coffee shops that open early in the morning, which is hardly seen in Korea. Shops or people starting early day give me constructive impressions. I don't like to get up early in the morning, though.
I have three major accounts that include U company, the biggest foreign buyer for my company, A company, the German company that belongs to Bbraun and Toshiba. As of today, I think Toshiba will be John's account. Frank said during the meeting this evening that Eunmi's software company will make a big contract with Toshiba to supply their software but we failed to get the chance to supply our probes to them. And the software will be sold to Toshiba through us. (I don't understand why we need to be the middleman. Maybe it still leaves us opportunities to supply our probes to Toshiba by keeping the contact.) Frank said John will take care of it from now on. It means he has to do all the paper work for this unprofitable deal instead of me. hehe But the question remains. Why did Frank get John, a manager to do such time-consuming work instead of me? Oh, a little off the subject.:)
Anyway, I hadn't met anyone at U company except John, the CEO who I met at WFUMB in Seoul. So I suggested to Frank that we go over to their booth and he introduce them to me. When we went there, Rossa, the sales manager who is a Korean Canadian and Frank likes so much greeted us first. She said she immigrated to Canada in 1992, which mostlikely means she is almost like a native English speaker. Then I met Laurent, the founder and CTO who is French and Kris, the software engineer who talked too fast. Then I met Amol, the service manager who I thought would be fat and shabby-looking. My imagination turned out to be completely wrong. He was a pretty handsome and intelligent-looking man.:) It was fun to find out how the people who I had corresponded with really look like. It would have been the same for them. What would they have thought about how I look in person compared to the image of me in their imagination? Hmm...:)

Nov. 26th (The second day)

I got up at 6:30 am. I remembered that I fell asleep hearing the sound Eunmi was making by discharging(?) milk out of her breasts using a little machine. I know women breast-feeding their children should do that. Sometimes it is tough just to take care of myself but women who have children should do such things as well. Yes, mothers are all great. And I don't think I could be like them. After we got ready, we went to the hotel restaurant to have breakfast. The hotel room rates were $136 for a night with breakfast excluded. The waitress asked us "A la carte or buffet?" when we entered in. Eunmi didn't know what a la carte meant. The experience at Ginga is sometimes helpful because I learned those words working at Ginga.:) We were kind of in a rush so we had a la carte. The service at the restaurant was baaaaad. It took us 10 mintues to order and 10 minutes to ask for a check. People who are the working class in the states seemed mostly black people and they didn't have smiles on their faces.
We were a bit late and John and Kurt left for McCormick place by a shuttle bus before us. When I and Eunmi got there, I said hi to John. He gave me a very cold and merciless look without saying anything back to me. Fortunately, I don't get hurt too much any more by his such behaviors because I was trained and got stronger now.:) Eunmi explained to John it was her that got up late. John couldn't get angry with her because she was the CEO. hoho
We started arranging displays and had to finish everything quickly as 10 am was the opening time of the exhibition and it was the first day. Since there were too many huge and eye-catching booths of well-known multinational companies like GE and Siemens, our booth didn't stand out at all and rather looked dull although we spent about $30,000 dollars on it. It seemed Siemens' booths took up almost 10% of the whole hall space and they looked busy all the time just with the people from Siemens. Companies well known as camera manufacturers like Kodak, Konica, Olympus were in the medical industry, which I didn't know before. The atmosphere of the exhibition made me feel alive and gave me a sense of motivation. It was telling me about the professionalism. It felt like working in front of a computer for a year couldn't be better than being at this exhibition for a week.
More and more people visited our booth and I was afraid if I could deal with them without knowing much about what we make and without being fluent in speaking English. But when I had no problem understanding people's English, I got confident and my Enlgish came out very naturally. Even though I didn't know what to say at first, I found myself adapting to this situation gradually. I wondered if my effort of watching Enlgish TV all the time has improved my listening and speaking skills or if it was Amercian English easy for me to listen to.
I saw John and Kurt's business cards were on the display and asked John if I should put my cards on it as well. Then John moved Kurt's to the corner and put mine near his where people can see them better. After some time, Kurt said "People take cards at the corner more. Let me move yours there." and swaped his for mine. Does he think I am an idiot or something? Or he couldn't think of better excuses. Kurt has been always sly and condescending. That's why I made him a nick name "Director Cho" in the beginning when we used to get along. He talks like he is the boss. I know what I should do but he likes to intervene and tell me what to do. I can feel he watches me all the time as if he monitors me and he is always interested in what I am doing. I made a scrapbook that I collected some things to study on and he was looking it all through when I was doing something else. When I was standing next to Frank to take notes of what is discussed during a meeting, he told me to take notes well. Oh my god, why does he say such things to me when Frank already told me so and I was doing it. And he is not my senior or anything. That kind of behavior would piss anybody off, I am sure. I could never understand why he likes to be so condescending and nosy all the time. Since we just started talking after a long time of the cold war, I tried to be nice and didn't say anything but "I am doing it because FRANK told me to do so.".
At lunch, I had a hot dog with a burnt sausage and caremelized onions. How could food people eat be this junky?
After the first day at the exhibition ended, I was very tired as my tension released. We had dinner at the same Thai restaurant as last night and I complained that we should go to a different place to eat because we flew here. I could see John was thinking I was showing too much of my personal preference or something. But Frank smiled and said we should find another restaurant for Jenny tomorrow. It was interesting the same words I said were taken in completely different ways by two people.

Nov. 25th (The first day)

The day before departing for Chicago, I worked until late. I got home around 9 pm, ate and started packing. I hate packing and moving even more. I had to bring a few pairs of suit so there wasn't much space in the trunk that my sister lent me. (Actually when I put everything in it in the morning of the departure day, it didn't close but I managed to close it by sitting on it.) I set two alarms before I went to sleep around 1am because missing the flight was the last thing I wanted to imagine. In the morning, Frank picked me up outside my apartment. How kind of him. He said he had to go to the office before coming to pick me up because he forgot to bring his business cards. He looked very tired. In Nov., he went to China for a week, then to Germany for a week and then he was going to Chicago again. No wonder he has lots of acne. He said he doesn't want to go on business trips any more but wants to spend weekends with his family. Frank picked up Kevin on the way who was supposed to take Frank's car (actually our company's car) back after we arrived at the airport.
I was feeling a bit nervous because I had the exhibits that I had to declare at the customs with the carnet. I knew that Frank would judge my ability of dealing with things even in such a situation. We checked in our baggage first and went to the customs to declare the exhibits. Frank explained what the exhibits are to the officer. Fortunately, they didn't open the boxes and things got simple. I didn't have to explain in more detail. Frank got a travel insurance saying America is not safe. I did, too of course it was covered by my company. I rent a roaming cell phone at KTF since my phone doesn't support roaming sevice.:( It was all set. Frank didn't like Dr. Lee much who was taking the same flight as us. So we went through the gate first. Unlike when I was departing for Australia, the examiner went through all my stuff in my handbag. Entering America seemed more strict than other countries.
At the duty free shop, Frank had a VIP card that gives 10% discounts for some items so he paid for what I bought by his credit card and told me to pay him back later. I bought a watch from Christian Mode, a lipstick from Yves Saint Laurent and an eye shadow from Bobbi Brown. I bought a Fossil watch before I departed for Australia but the watch broke while I was working at Ginga because I had to put it on and take it off continuously and wet my hands with water all the time. Not a good memory at all. The Christian Mode watch was not impulsive buy because I needed one. I was deciding between black color and white color and asked Frank which one looked better. I was glad that I get along so well with my boss. Frank even recommended some cosmetics to me saying his wife liked this and that. It was so funny to see him say that because other hierarchical Korean bosses wouldn't say such things. I don't normally buy foreign cosmetics for myself because Korean brands are good enough for cheaper prices. But the "duty free" shops made me buy some. The lipstick color seemed the same as the one I bought for my mom last time, though. I always choose the same things before I know. By the way, I had to pick up the lipstick near the gate later because of the regulations for flights going to America. After finishing shopping, I called Richard. Being at Incheon airport definitely reminded me of the time when I said goodbye to him crying in his arms.
I love taking flights. I love looking down the lands and the feeling of flowing over the clouds. I love it when the plane takes off although it is a little bit scary sometimes but I do enjoy it. When the plane for Chicago finally took off, I wished I had Richard next to me so I could hold on to him.:) Frank fell asleep even before the plane took off. It must be nothing exciting to him who flew with Korean air about 125 times. But for me, such moments shouldn't be missed.:) 12 hours flight wasn't too boring for me because I was tired enough to fall asleep any time and food and beverage were served and there were lots of things to watch and read. Maybe it's because I don't fly often.:) And if I had sat next to John instead of Frank, it must have been a nightmare, I believe. By the way, I didn't like the food that Korean air served.
When the land of Chicago started to appear, I started feeling excited. Finally I arrived at O'Hare airport in Chicago. We waited in lines for quite a while to go through the customs and Frank complained this kind of thing doesn't happen in Europe. He said he hates America because of the food and these processes. For me, everything was bearable. haha We got in a Korean taxi waiting for us outside the airport that John arranged for us in advance. In the taxi, I was busy looking outside through the window but tried not to look too excited because I came here for business.:) I took some videos of the streets and houses. It was before my bloody camera got fucked. (I wonder how strong my choices of the words here would sound.hehe) The hotel wasn't as bad as I expected because Frank said he didn't want to stay at the hotel before. When I said the hotel doesn't look that bad, he said "Go to the room and you will find out." Hmm...the hallways were like the background of an old western ghost movie and was pretty stinky. But the room was pretty clean. I put my luggage down and came out of the room immediately to go to McCormick place. No time for rest!
When Frank and I arrived at McCormick place, I realized I forgot to bring the badges that cost about $300 for each. They were in my trunk. Frank didn't scold me harshly. whew...We used Kurt's badge and got in the exhibition hall while he was setting up the booth frames. McCormick place was as huge as I read about it. Exotic sceneries (tall men!:)) came into my eyes and the sound of people speaking English came into my ears. I was excited. The hall was a whole mess and it looked like a lot of work was needed to finish the booth. I was glad that I am female.:) We went to a cafe to have lunch. American food nightmares began from that moment on. There were thick slices of cheese pizza and sausage pizza on the display. And the sandwiches had little vegetable but just big thick white bread. Beverages were just water and soda. Hmm...that wasn't what I expected about this trip. I consoled myself by thinking of dinner we would be having in the evening.:)
After the 12 hours flight and working right after that, Frank and I were feeling exhausted. When I came back to the hotel, I almost passed out as soon as I lied down. When Eunmi, the CEO of O company arrived at the hotel and called me on my mobile phone, I didn't wake up. And when Frank called me on the hotel room phone, I answered the phone. Then all of us (Frank, Eunmi, two dongs (Both Kurt and John's Korean names have dong.) and me) went to have dinner to a casual Thai restaurant nearby. I wanted to go to a fancier restaurant but well...I ordered a salad because next day was the first day of the exhibition and I wanted to look fresh.:). The salad was disgusting but not junk.
Since I was too tired, I didn't suffer from any jet lag and slept very well that night.

My first business trip to Chicago

Overseas business trips have been my dream, I would say. They were one of the main reasons I chose my job and one of the things I love about my job. At EnE, I had a Saudi Arbian account as my main client. There was a big problem with EnE products exported to Saudi and they needed EnE to dispatch a technician to fix the problem in the field. Asmat, the secretary of the managing director was close to me and I asked him to write in the email that they want me to come with a technician as well for smooth communication. He kindly did as I requested.:) And the CEO of EnE accepted it. But I needed special permission from Saudi government to get a visa. The CEO said he never saw any women in the street when he visited Saudi and decided not to send me. This year a few months ago, there was a quality issue raised at U company and Frank and I were going to go to Canada but they said just a telephone conference would do. How disappointing.
After all this, I finally got the chance and I was so happy. Once I told Frank that I would love to attend either MEDICA in Germany or RSNA in the states. Maybe it was a good thing that I showed my eagerness to Frank then.

Someone in the past

sent me a message through my cyworld today. Eunjoo ya, can you guess who it is? It's OIL!!!:O

Good day or bad day?

This morning John and I participated in a video meeting with the people at the headquarters. The meeting was about how to report effectively the improvements implemented on the sample that was sent to U company after the first sample failed to get their approval. I am really bad at concentrating and especially in video meetings, it's much more difficult for me. At EnE, I even fell asleep in a meeting once and the president got angry and went out of the room.:) However, it was very important for me to concentrate during the meeting this morning because I had to make the report reflecting everybody's opinion by myself since Frank wasn't there. In the middle of the meeting, Mr. Dong, the director asked me about something and I only heard him calling my name but not what was said before my name. I was perplexed and remained quiet for a few seconds but he just kept talking. Whew~ How good it is that I am still young and not expected to know about everything! After that, they discussed the report I made and sent them via email. All of a sudden, everybody started saying my name to present their opinions about the report I made. "In the report Lee Kyounghye si made, ...", "Lee Kyounghye si summarized...", "Like Lee kyounghye si wrote,..." It felt weird but good at the same time. My attention level just surged up and I felt the sense of responsibility. Yes, it was an interesting feeling. Obviously people pay more attention when their names are called.

About ten minutes before it became 6pm, Changjoon started to ask people if they could go for drinking after work. Actually I was going to buy a birthday cake for my brother-in-law and go to my sister's place after work but my sister said she had some relatives coming to celebrate his bitrthday so I decided to go another time. Changjoon came up to me and said "We are going out for drinking. Why don't you come?". I said "It's my brother-in-law's birthday today so I...". Even before I finished, he went back to his desk. I felt really bad about him even though I was lying. He looked very disappointed but I didn't understand why he got so disappointed. We are not even close and I don't think they really need me to join them. He said "Is your brother-in-law more important than me?" Ha!!! He asked me if I have met his Chinese wife who is even younger than me (Changjoon is 36 or something and a typical ajossi.). I said no. Maybe he wanted to show his young and allegedly pretty wife to me. But as I said, we are not that close and I am not really interested in his wife although I am curious about a Chinese wife living in Korea. After that, Kurt asked me again if I would join them. How annoying!! I knew they went out for drinking last night. And tonight again. I really feel sorry for their families. If my husband was like that, that would be horrible. No, I wouldn't pick such a man for my husband. If they had asked me a few days in advance or even a day in advance, I could have considered it although I don't want to. They have no idea how to respect personal time. Why do I have to act like I am sorry for not being available for them?? This is awful, really. These moments make me hate Korea.
I came home via Homeplus. I bought some chocolate chip cookies and grapes. The grocery section was filled with all sorts of chocolates for the SAT tomorrow. It lightens me up just looking at them.:) I saw some green grapes next to the purple ones but they are simply too expensive. It made me miss the seedless grapes in Australia that I loved as well as mangoes.
I came home and ate some vanila-cream cookies, chocolate chip cookies and an apple. It seemed my appetite had gone down since I was sick last month but recently my craving for sweet food has been activated again. I should look good for the exhibition.:(
Coughing continues. Cold medicines don't seem to work. Please go away.

Something that can't be explained logically

Although I can see clearly what is good and what is bad for me, I choose the hard way hoping that it is not a bad decision just because my mind leads me to it.