Complaints and suspicions

It's already time to go to sleep but I don't want to. Tonight Heejeong called me and said she is feeling too bored without working. And Songi just called me and told me the same thing. How could I not understand both of them? I know exactly how boring life without a job is from my experience in Australia. It is beyond boredom, it can cause absolute depression.
Like I predicted, we went to a sashimi restaurant tonight for work dinner.:( Outback Steakhouse was attracting me just across the road. I ate a few pieces of raw fish just because there was nothing to eat. At least raw fish is good for skin. But I don't like the texture and smell of raw fish and the idea of eating raw stuff is awful. Mr. Kim smoked constantly and Kevin talked constantly as always. I was glad that I didn't have to go for the second round to karaoke because not everyone was going. John has been very nice to me these days, which is strange to me. Today he came over to my desk and asked me if he could use my eyeglasses wiping cloth. It definitely made me feel suspicious of his real intention because his desk is pretty far away from mine and he is not that close to me enough to come over for such a petty reason. Tonight at the restaurant, I heard him saying "Kyounghye-si doesn't eat raw fish. Then what does she eat here?". Last Monday he even said several times that I looked attractive that night. I don't think I've done something nice to him and suddenly he started being nice to me. I can't help but think to myself that there must be something behind it...
Songi wants to meet me tomorrow after I finish work. I told her that I would prefer to meet during the weekend but she insisted meeting tomorrow and I kind of agreed. Maybe I should cancel the arrangement tomorrow so she could understand how it feels.:)
I am getting used to this keyboard. That's good.
Inyoung and Gina's boyfriends came and pick them up tonight. I felt lonley and walked home doing some self-pitying thinking.
I am feeling much better now thanks to my laptop. Gotta sleep.